My first entry! Well, at least the first one to test how this works. I’m planning to use this as a little corner to vent, share updates, and just… keep track of what I’m doing.

So, hi! I’m NeededResty, or just Ressy, which is my real name. I’m a trans girl, and I make music for games/FNF. I’m also working on a game called Upheaval, which I’ve been working on for a few months now. This is going to be my little hideout to post about my life, what I’m working on, and how I’m feeling. I might not update super often, but I’ll try to check in every now and then.

To start on a positive note—good things that have happened: I’ve slowly started making new friends who I really care about. Some are people I met online in dev servers, some I met in person, and I’m just glad I have some more people I can talk to.

I now co-direct an FNF mod I once just composed for, and I’m glad I met the team behind it when I did. Even if it was from some Deltarune exe.

And here starts the venting and bad things, which sadly there have been a lot more bad than good. I have lost a few friends, which I have gotten over and won't talk about. I’ve lost a lot of interest in some of the things I had once loved, and that includes FNF.

I still like the music that has come from FNF, but I do not care for its mods very much anymore. A lot of the good mods have been canned or underhyped resulting in it going under my radar and everyone else's. I’d go back and try to make something good, but it goes under the radar of everything and everyone. Some of my proudest works have already gone through the radar which fucking sucks.

There is one mod I do co-direct, that is a direct retake on the mod that started my trip through a bunch of bigger people's servers and groups and got me to meet a lot of other people. I’m glad for its existence. But, there is one thing. I have no idea what it is but I can’t get this fucking song right. Try after try, there's always something wrong with it. Usually, it’s too empty, but every time I try to fix it, I FAIL. The original piece already sounded empty. No offense but the amount of reverb is the only thing filling the void of silence it gives off. I just want to fix it, I like the original and it has a special place in my heart, it really does. But I just wish I could make it better, and not make it sound like a cheap copy or copy that sounds just slightly better.

I can’t remake it again though. It would be the third time and like a friend says “You can’t keep polishing the same shit.” But whatever, I’ll surely work on it sometime.

I do want to make one promise though, if I were to ever stop working on FNF stuff, I do want to remake Horrorcrime one last time. The vocals were made when I didn’t know how to mix and it has too much high-end, etc. I would also wanna remix AnotherBrother one last time.

Anyways, that's about all I have to say, and as always, I need rest.